God, there is time I have sincerely doubt you. I have never allowed my faith to come fully dependant on your decisions. I have always had some of the control. Father you know me so well. I’m finding that you see my little faults and find a humorous way of pulling them out so I can see them and fix them. Father you know my heart so well that you can even correct me with laughter. I love you father. I commit that my life and faith will be connected with you. I don’t in any way want my life aligned with Satan. I love you father. I thank you.

Kezia

My son today got a rope burn from the dog and the first thing he wanted me to do was pray that he would feel better. Of course I did! But then I held his hands and had him say his own pray. God needs the plea from the one hurting. When I am able to get to a place and understand how desperate the situation is I need to turn to my Heavenly Father not my other christians. It always helps to have extra pray partners and a lot of times can continue to pray it thru for you but I know I am most responsible for taking my case to God.

God I have been one of the ones who have depended on your children to speak your life into me without ever doing a thing about it. I know that their prayers are so helpful but I know you need my prayers and worship. I need to be able to go to my Daddy and take the time to share with you my life. I know you know everything but you want to be able to hear me tell you. I ask that you forgive me. I worship you Father. I thank you Lord. Amen

God may only be in our direct contact for a season. He’s always there but there are times he just doesn’t speak as much in our lives. I know at times I have felt anger and bitterness towards my Heavenly Father for not being there. I couldn’t believe that my Father would forsake me. I never thought about what I maybe doing wrong or what my actions were doing to effect my relationship with him. All I knew was God wasn’t speaking and I was mad. Instead in high points and different seasons of our lives we need to enjoy and stand in total surrender and enjoyment with our intimate time with God. Instead of demanding more and never being satisfied I have to get to a point that I understand that he is in my presence now for a reason. The reason could be just equipping me for a time of desert. He knows that I need the tools to continue on and he sends visitation time with me to prepare me for what the next season will be.

In our marriages it’s so similar. We have times where things are terrible. Were growing in two different ways, see things differently or whatever it is and it puts a block between your spouse. When things are good were still striving to be more. OUr marriage should be stronger should be should be……… We are constantly striving. I was thinking what if something happened to Shane Had I enjoyed the blessed times we had? Had I truly surrendered my marriage and my love to my Father and knew the time we had together was meaningful. Or did I work too much, fight too much, strive to much and miss the blessing of the short lifespan we would have together. I want to stop striving and rest in the moments of love and peace so we can prepare for the hardships of a later time. We need memorials. Places to go back to while moving forward.

Father, I know I have placed blame on you in situations you were totally blameless. You have blessed me with so much and I have had the tendency to ask for more. I repent Father. I trust that you make all things right and you know exactly what I need to continue. Let my eyes be opened to the things you have given me. Let my heart love and protect the blessings you want me to continue in. You are in my everyday presence right now in my life and I’m going to lean into you and enjoy my time with you Father. I love you God. Amen.

I’m struggling today. My heart hurts. I understand the struggle is temporary. I know God’s final plan. It is just having to struggle through the process. I’m remind of the song from children’s church ITS ME ITS ME ITS ME OH LORD STANDING IN THE NEED OF PRAYER.I need to be constantly standing in prayer. I need that, I need to accept his will and timing while I am drawing closer.

In my dreams last night I had a very constant presence of God in my thoughts. He was reminding me he hadn’t left he is so close. Just meditate on me draw in closer and you will never be alone. I’m standing in your presence. I woke with such peace and even more so understanding. I’m coming to a point where time is only temporary. I have a larger fight to get ready for and I will be strong and trust my Heavenly Father.

Father, you know my weakness. You know where my flesh fails. I ask that in my weakness you can come in and make me supernaturally strong in you. I draw close to you today Father. I need your comfort. I need a protective layer of your Grace around me. I’m drawing closer and hearing your voice. I want to seek you and find you throughout my day. Thank you Father for you love and protection. I humbly worship you. I know I am unworthy but through you have sanctified me and I stand with my hands lifted high and praising your name even in the tough times. Give comfort to the ones that need you Father. Give strength to the ones who are weary. Make this day a memorial day for the ones who seek and find you. I love you Father in your name. Amen!

The is passage is in Luke 18: 1-8

1And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint; 2Saying, There was in a city a judge, which feared not God, neither regarded man: 3And there was a widow in that city; and she came unto him, saying, Avenge me of mine adversary. 4And he would not for a while: but afterward he said within himself, Though I fear not God, nor regard man; 5Yet because this widow troubleth me, I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me. 6And the Lord said, Hear what the unjust judge saith. 7And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them? 8I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?

In bible times the window was marked as a desolate person. She either had to go live with a male family member, became a prostitute, or had to live under the priest in the temples. All three were very degrading. She owned nothing and was nothing. She had to go to a judge who didn’t care anything about anyone and constantly beg over and over for her safety. She had no one to go to and needed the Judge’s covering.

The passage teaches us how to pray. We are to go back to God over and over and cry out for the afflictions we have. I think this could be a good representation of the Israel. They are God’s widow. They have left him and forsaken Him and God had divorced them. Severed his covering from them. We hear the cries of the Israelites even now they are begging for God to come back to them to release them from their enslavement. They cannot be released because of their denial of Christ. When they are able to accept Him as the Messiah their prayers will be quickly answered. The Widow would go back to the judge everyday and finally because of her persistance he granted her what she needed. We are to pray with fervent prayer. We might not get an answer, we may feel totally rejected and lost, and even feel that God had rejected us. We are not unheard he hears our cries. Jesus says here that He will avenge us speedily. We need to be faithful. We need to pray with all our hearts and minds. When He asked if he shall find faith on earth after he comes back He is talking to us. He needs us to be on our knees waiting for the answer. Praying and begging for mercy. We are to pray without ceasing. I want to be found faithful. I will be praying for God’s mercy until the day I die or until the day my Jesus returns.

Jesus, We cry to you. We beg mercy upon the people who have rejected you. Let them find and know you. We ask that you take the blinds of their eyes and realize you are the only true King and you have come to save them from their sins. I cry out for the souls in my family who have rejected you. I cry out for our government who has placed theirselves in your position. Let them seek and find you. Change our hearts. I pray that their hearts will be opened and will receive your word. We are dying as a world and so many are lost and going to hell. We need you Father to come in and clean the land. We need a revival. We are told to be fishermen of men. God make me a fishermen. Bring people who are searching into my path  and give me to words to bring them to you Father. I love you and I worship you and I choose to be one of the faithful who will seek you without stopping. Amen

God ordained us to marry. God’s ultimate goal was for us to marry a spouse that He has led us to. A spouse who serves God and submits to His will. If you obey him and understand what it means to love like our Father does then our spouse and children are able to get a small picture of how wonderful our Father’s love is for us.

He wants us to understand the full love story of his heart. He court’s us. Takes us places we couldn’t ever dream. He loves us and tell us he will never leave. God is calling us to be his Bride. By marriage, the way it is supposed to be is so similar to what God is doing in our personal hearts. He is calling the heart’s of his people. Telling us how much he loves us, and being a full-time companion. Sure just like in a marriage we go thru hard times. There are times we do something that hurts our spouses. We let them down maybe even tear them down, but in the end my hope would be that we would return to the love for each other. When we leave our Father, when we slander his name, or give up on him my prayer is that were able to get back to a place where we love Him and willing give our love back to Him. I want to allow my Heavenly Father to be my bridegroom. I need him to minister to my heart and guide my heart straight to his. I need his love more and more everyday. I understand that he is allowing me to go through the refining fire so I am able to be the pure bride for him when he returns.

Father, I come to you today with a love and understanding of why life is created. It all circles around you. You created every office we hold to be a representation of your desires for our life. I ask that I am able to keep the things you have ordained pure and of you only. I repent for ever rejecting your love and you. I ask that you open my heart to all your things. I love that you love me. I love that you will never leave me or forsake me. I ask now for the marriages that are broken and to the brink of ending that you will come in and heal hearts. Let them turn towards you so they can finding healing in you. Bless the marriages who are building their marriage on you. I love you Father and I thank you for all the things you have done. Amen.

At times I become so totally self dependant and I leave my Father out. I’m not even good at it! I make a small problem into something big. I get upset, I get angry because I can’t fix it and when it gets resolved I have 20 other fires to extinguish. I could tell you I need to find better ways to get rid of the stress, but I already know how. I need to depend on Jesus. 

God, you know my struggles. You know exactly where the enemy attacks me the most. I ask for your help. I need your help Father. I can’t do much without you and more so I don’t want to. Forgive me Father for taking on things that I shouldn’t. You know how to handle every situation that I can not.   I lay my day before you feet and ask that you take my hand and guide me through out this day. Amen

My Father is asking me to continue to reach deeper into his heart. He wants me to be so fully connected that no mater the advisary I will be able to trust God and know that the battle is won. I want to be the on fire Christian! BUT I don’t want to be the burnt out Christian. For that reason alone I must continue to grow and depend on my Heavenly Father for all things so that I may never grow weary and understand where my strength comes from.

King David was a man after God’s own heart and yet still failed. He was an adulter and a murderer. He would shake and bow in the very presence of God. He searched and found God in so many different times of his life but still managed to burn out. I don’t want that. I want to burn and burn with the Holy Spirit. I want my life to be unshakable and irreproachable. The only way I can do this is to draw closer and know who my Heavenly Father is in the most intimate ways.

Father I come before you and ask that you draw the stings of my heart closer and closer to you Father. I want my life so intertwined that I stay in harmony and on fire for your works. Guide my spirit to only things that you desire for my life. I will draw closer to you Father and know when you have called me to do something and when the time is here for me to stand up for it. I love you Jesus and I pray for divine guidance in my life and others around me. Lift up the ones who are hurting and broken today. We ask all these things in your name. Amen.

We as people have to learn to address the attacks and know who has just entered our presence. If not then we will become so locked down and let Satan win. HE CANNOT WIN! There is so much that needs to be done before our Savior comes back and we need to be ready to fight. Were fighting for our life in Heaven.

I encourage us as christians to make a stand. We need to know who we serve and know what the voice of our Father sounds like. We have to get to a point where we are only listening to our Heavenly Father and know the difference between Him and anything else.

Our prayer is for the will of our Heavenly Father to be our will as a nation. We try so hard Father to become something personally connected, but if we look for the unity as a whole then we can open the heavens and unleash the power of the one and only true King. Thank you for your trials for they make me stronger it helps us to understand your grace. I pray for the lost, for the weary, and for those who are just stubborn thank you father in Jesus name amen